This week was particularly challenging for two reasons. Number 1: I was with the younger kids, which are definitely more of a challenge for me, but a challenge that I definitely wanted to meet. They just need a different kind of patience. In a world where I use sarcasm and humor to get things done, it doesn't work so well for little kids. They need to be more direct and cared for. I dunno. Honestly, this week has shaken how I feel about working with kids because I just keep thinking that I'm not good enough and that my life decision is the wrong decision because I'm not the most liked counselor there, and for some reason that hurts me more than I care to admit. Do I need to give up my need to keep them safe in order to be more liked? Do these kids even realize how much I really do care about them? will i always feel this defeated?
this last Wednesday we went ice skating for the field trip. Now as many of you might know, I am terrified of ice skating, as in I cry like a small child on ice, so I got to sit out with some of the kids while the rest went ice skating. Perk: being able to take pictures of people falling and having a good time. I felt like the proud mom of 60 children.
And so this week came to an end as most weeks do, and lost another batch of kids which is always super sad, but this friday was an extra special friday because me and the girls got on the train to go to the Tokyo Dome to see the Tokyo Giants play the Hiroshima Carps. This is my first baseball game ever and it was so exciting. I bought a beer outside of the dome, got a ticket for 1500 yen, walked in, got a fan and a peekachoo hat, met an attendant who opened my beer and poured it into a cup for me, and then went to take my seat that was pretty high but it was still behind home plate.
this baseball game had no announcers, and the spectators all cheered for both teams regardless of whether they were wearing giants gear or not. All in all, it was a very polite game that was very supportive of both teams. I had a really great time. I love the people that I work with.
Saturday, Brittany, Melanie, Anita and I had planned on going to the beach, but then I discovered that I had left my swimsuit at work, and then after a great many trials and tribulations I ended up with Megan's board shorts and a tank top. After an hour and 45 minutes, three trains, and many questions, we ended up at the beach.
I was so happy. Ever since I was little, water has been almost a sense of power for me and so being in this ocean was just the same, except for the waves were kind of lame, but I had fun just a same. Got a little tanner, and a lot happier just being there. I spent so much time in the water with Anita and Brittany. The day was so much fun until we met these obnoxious drunk guys and then I decided that it was time to go. It was such an amazing day and I had so much fun, and it was pretty much exactly what I needed, at least for now.
