In these past two weeks since being home, I feel like I've gone through emotional and physical change. Physical is eating America food, and getting used to being in a different time zone. My emotional has been a much deeper thing.
As some may know, next week my older sister Ashlee is getting married. I have watched my sister and Chad grow together over the years, and this relationship is one more reason that I am convinced that true love and companionship is still alive.
In a world where sex is casual, divorce is common, and love is heard but not meant, I have never expected to find such a companion. I don't expect it, and yet it has been one of my greatest hopes.
And so, in those moment, I would like to share my greatest congratulations with Ashlee and Chad, who against all odds, distances, fights, and inconveniences have come together to say that they love each other more than any other. I can honestly say that I am quite aghast and blessed to be able to be a part of this next week, even though I will be seeing it through a film of tears. There is something about being in the presence of such affection that gets me every time.
I wish that I had the words right now to say what I really felt. Unfortunately, my words are completely gone from my head. Since I have been back in America, I have been trying to fill the voids in my life, but I have come to realize that the voids are voids I need to fill with myself. My step mom Linda brought up a great point when she said that people only see in me what I see in myself. I have a great many shortcomings, but that makes me human. I often doubt my performance, but I always do my best, so I shouldn't. I am not perfect, because no one is. I am a force to be reckoned with and I deserve everything. I need to learn patience, because without it, I will rush my way through life and miss the beauty along the way. I have missed so much, and I refuse to miss anymore. I have love all around me, and I often forget that because I am focused on the love I don't have.

All you need is love, and that is any form. Thanks to those who love truly, and truly love all. I will be one of those people from now on.